Showing posts with label SGYC. Show all posts
Showing posts with label SGYC. Show all posts

Saturday, July 21, 2018

Ten Years of SGYC

     This morning ten years ago, somehow I forced myself to leap into the Great Unknown. Where I actually leapt into was Mr. Gundersen's van. It was a new adventure for nearly all of us - Grace Bible-Tulsa hadn't sent anyone to this church camp before, though a few of the girls had been before with friends from other churches. 
     See, Marie had talked Josh and I into going with her, and then she backed out at the last second. (I want to say her family went on vacation two weeks before camp started, but I'm not sure.) FFH's "I'll Join the Rocks" was one of the songs stuck in my head on the way to southwest Missouri.

     What happened? I met my teammate Daniel the first night - he'd been here before, showed me the ropes. The next day I met a guy named Matt, who had also never been there. As the week progressed, I met twins Marshall and Madelyn, and a lot of other people, including Taylor, Shari, Jojo, Jake and Ashton. I met counselors like Terry, Tim, Brother Larry, Robin and Janet C. I learned how to square dance, and while doing so met Ashland. I also learned how to play volleyball. 2008

     The next year the fire-remodeling was happening, and SGYC was a relief from the stress. Daniel and I had started emailing each other regularly, and his advice and encouragement was something I benefited greatly from. It rained often, and I learned how to play ping pong and met Jed, Jon Jessica and Amanda. 2009

     Sam and Dylan had joined the GBC youth group by our next trip. Tim wasn't there because of his brain tumor, which made for an odd week. It was a strange year of camp in general. I taught Dylan how to throw a Frisbee, and this was the first time that Ashland and I were teammates, on Black (the Panthers). 2010

     2011 was eventful. The White Cubs were terrible at the Tournament Challenge sports, but we worked really well together (mostly our team was composed of Tulsans and Hankinses). Sam and I did a duet of Carrie Underwood's "Temporary Home" for Talent Share, and that didn't go so well. Bennett kept the guys cabin in stitches. 

     2012 was also eventful. It was just at the end of senior year, Jeff Johnson was the camp pastor (he wasn't great). Miss Kathy led the singing, which was amazing. Our Blue Bison team won the Tournament Challenge. Jessica and Amanda came back for one more year of camp. Ashland and I made Mrs. Boyer a sympathy card (her dad had just died).

     I was a counselor in 2013, 2014, 2015 and 2016. I've helped with archery, Bible Jeopardy, and volleyball, and led softball. I've made friends with most of the counselors, but the past two times I've felt like things were just too routine, something was off. I don't know what, exactly, but I hope that it can be fixed.

Wednesday, December 20, 2017

2017 in Review

     Some of the topics I studied in my final semester included Gothic lit, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, country music and serial killers. Bored one night, I assembled a list of my favorite TV couples. Consumed a lot of caffeine through pop, energy drinks and coffee. Studied sketch comedy through reruns of Saturday Night Live and premature endings through reruns of Law & Order. Decided that if I had time to get into them, I would really enjoy ER and Castle. Practiced cartooning for Pop Market. I completed a 5K, went on a couple dates, and met a coatimundi. I was successfully murdered (in a play) and watched a lot of hockey. Survived the capstone presentation and graduation. Interned at the Okmulgee News Network for Valerie. Started writing about NASCAR for a racing-news website called Frontstretch in October. Spent more time around the Creek Nation than I would've wished, and sent out far too many job-application emails. .
     I got Caleb hooked on Parks and Recreation, which I'm kind of proud of, and taught him how to use Spotify. Joined Instagram in late May. Missed camp, but spent some time with a camp friend. Went hiking in Arkansas, and unsuccessfully tried to line dance on Black Friday. Read roughly the same amount of fiction and nonfiction, and watched more movies than usual. Followed the Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. through the Framework and into space.

     Read through the letters of E.B. White and the complete short stories of Flannery O'Connor. Read about 160 books this year, distributed pretty evenly across fiction and nonfiction. These ranged from graphic novels to philosophy, memoirs to horror, theology to business.
     Made progress on a couple nonfiction projects, and did a lot of editing to fiction and poetry. Wrote a handful of short stories (which can be found on the writing blog), adapted a flashfiction project into a one-act play, and taught myself how to navigate a crime map.

     According to Spotify, I listened to 6,196 minutes of music, in 756 songs from 391 different artists and 18 genres. The song count sounds a little low. The top five artists/bands were Owl City, Brad Paisley, Relient K, Bon Jovi and DC Talk. The top six songs were Collin Raye's "One Boy, One Girl" and "I Can Still Feel You," Avril Lavigne's "Keep Holding On," Bon Jovi's "Livin' On a Prayer,"Relient K's "For the Moments I Feel Faint," and eLi's "The Lumber Song."
     The Collin Raye songs were mostly for my capstone project, but the others are a good summary of how the year went.

     President Donald Trump caused mayhem and controversy on what seemed a weekly basis, many elite Hollywood and national-news-media people were fired for being Bill Dexhart. The public further lost interest in the NFL after numerous players protested the National Anthem.
     Saturday Night Live had trouble adjusting to how to react to Trump, and decided to fire most of their best (in my opinion) cast members.
     The Penguins won the Stanley Cup (over the Predators), the Warriors won the NBA Finals (over the Cavaliers), the Patriots won the Super Bowl (over the Falcons), and the Astros won the World Series (over the Dodgers). Martin Truex Jr. dominated the NASCAR Cup Series season and won the championship. 
     New installments of Star Wars and the DC Extended Universe were released. The MCU rolled on with two "good but not great" films and a mostly-fantastic introduction to Spider-Man.
     Hurricanes Harvey and Irma hit the Gulf Coast and most of Florida, there was a solar eclipse in August and a mass shooting in Las Vegas at a Jason Aldean concert. Someone shot up a church in Texas.

     It was another difficult year. Maybe next year will be better.

Monday, July 17, 2017

CAMP: Part XI

     This year, I don't really know what is happening at SGYC. I know there are about 52 campers, and I know that Steve Long is the pastor (which should be great), but beyond that, I'm not sure.

     Why am I not sure? Because all the GBC youth bailed (though I can understand why), and so I didn't have a way to get up there. Which is frustrating, because Ashland and I had worked out that I would visit on the way back.

     Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 has been stuck in my head recently.

     So this week is much the same as any other this summer. Today's been filled with work, and the family went to visit the DeSpains. Today's articles are high school orientations and city fundraisers, and making PDF files of last week's stories. I Skyped with Amanda, Maya and Ellie for a bit this morning. They were "talking" to Uncle Wesley all the rest of the day, Manda said.

UPDATE 7-27:
     From pictures and Facebook posts, it sounded like it went well.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Visit From a Friend

     Because of how hectic a month May was, there wasn't time to reassemble the volleyball net after its brief winter break. So Caleb hooked it back up Thursday night after chopping down a bunch of interfering tree branches hanging over the court, which we then hauled down to the trailer at the bottom of the driveway. So volleyball season was open, which is always a good thing.

     Amy was typically excited about a grocery run to Sam's Friday morning, and other than that it seemed like an ordinary day - a little slow-starting, but that isn't too untypical. I was brushing my teeth when I hear somebody yelling for me to open the door, since someone was here. I see a fire-engine-red Chevy Cobalt parked in the driveway. "Ashland drives a red Cobalt, doesn't she?" I idly ask myself while twisting the doorknob.

     Side notes - Someone in UV-B at RSU drove a red Cobalt, which drove me nuts, always catching sight of it at random times and then admonishing myself that it was crazy for wondering if she was visiting for some reason. The model she drives wedged into my memory because it was my favorite to drive from Need For Speed: Most Wanted.
     Also, freshman year I was on my way to the post office in the UC basement to mail Ashland a birthday card when I lost the fight with the stairs. It's probably not significant, but it sure feels that way somehow - I got three scars on my left hand from that fall. I serve left-handed, and she wore No. 3 for the volleyball and basketball teams in high school.

     The cats are meowing loudly on the porch, like always.
     "HEY!!!!" a familiar glasses-wearing blonde grins.
     My jaw drops. "WHAT THE HECK...?"
     "Bet you weren't expecting to see me, huh?"
     Well, no - and the last time we saw each other I had to swipe a wasp out of her hair.
     She had the day off, and so she and Courtney had thought up the plan for her to come visit.
     "Who is she?" Trevor hisses quietly. "Your voice cracked like it does when you get really excited about something." "Ashland - you've heard stories." "Oh, right....wasn't she the one you wrote the book with?" "Yep."
 
     We hang out around the kitchen table with the family, discussing topics for several hours ranging from personality tests and superpowers to basic history, Greek mythology and special needs. Ashland's family is more Enneagram-based when it comes to personality tests, while we're Meyers-Briggs based. They're both useful tools. I'm an INFJ(ISFJ subtype), she can't remember her MBTI type, and we're both Enneagram Type Six, with wings (subtypes) of Five (me) and Seven (her).
     Camp "do you remembers?" were traded back and forth, especially the memories of being Blue Bison teammates (the Black Panthers and White Cubs weren't the best teams, though they were fun, too). Lots of stories were told, because that's what we do, like Mrs. Boyer's sympathy card, or how we met our first year. Matt was dancing the Virginia Reel with Ashland, and I was dancing with Madelyn, then we swapped partners for the Gay Gordon. Since we figured out the steps almost instantly, and everyone else had a hard time getting them down, there was a lot of time to talk. And that led to all the other projects we've worked on together since.
     Amy quickly decided that Ashland is her new favorite person in the world, though she couldn't remember her name. "I love Wesley's friend!" she said at one point.

     Ashland was curious about the Broken Arrow Bass Pro, and Caleb loves going there, so we piled in and headed up 75. And of course there had to be a selfie commemorating the occasion:
     It's not the greatest picture in the world, but taking bad pictures of each other is kind of what we do. Sometimes we even do it on purpose, like with this shot from our Bison days:
     That was to ease the tension during an especially-nerve-wracking table tennis match, though. Jed didn't get the memo to look worried.
     After dinner at Carl's Jr., we suggest roaming through Promenade Mall, but Caleb's like "Nah...." So we just decide to head back. Caleb falls asleep, waking up with a "Where am I?" It was funny. Ashland and I sing along to a country station (Billy Currington's "People Are Crazy," Dan + Shay's "From the Ground Up," can't remember the others). Conversation topics included good food ("Meatloaf is my weakness" she said), alcohol consumption (conclusion: don't get drunk, but once in a while is fine), Washington, D.C. (everyone would go there at least once, if we had our way), and family holiday traditions.

    Some more volleyball once we got home, and we were going to get some food in the morning, but that didn't quite work out, because of wrong turns and impending storms. So we just hung out in the living room again, plotting revisions on Two For the Treasure. At one point as a parenthetical phrase to whatever we were talking about at the moment, she says in a Jane Foster-like tone, "Blue is a good color on you." We also sketched a rough outline of our next project, tentatively titled Winter's Grace, where a handful of college students are stranded on a mountain during winter break.
     There was a lot of laughter. It was a good weekend.

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Easter 2017

     It's been a restless and wandery day. There's a storm coming, the tension has been slowly building since morning. Called home, everybody's helping Amy hunt for Easter eggs, and then the traditional baseball game with them afterwards.
     The Passover dinner at GBC apparently went really well, there were about 110 people there, roughly twenty percent of them being visitors, in the sense that they aren't part of the congregation, but all were at one point or are well-known friends of folks who are.
     Dado's final living brother, Kenneth, died this morning. And yesterday would have been Grandpa's birthday, the first one since he died last summer. That was kind of hard to deal with, but easier than I thought it'd be. Maybe because I was distracted by the day's tasks. Mom, Courtney and Amy all went over to Tahlequah to Louise's Thursday, Trish and everyone are visiting, and Bob came over.

     GBC's not officially sending a group to SGYC this year, but there's a plan for an Oklahoma-based camp to start near Chouteau in summer 2018. According to an email I got from Mrs. Boyer, Steve Long will still be the pastor this year, which should be a good thing. I'm not sure if I can be a counselor this year, depends on how the job search goes. If I do go, it'll match the time I spent as a camper - five years.
     Amanda's been teasing me incessantly all week long. ("Rolling eyes") Maya's second birthday is in two weeks.

     Reading slowly through Wendell Berry's Hannah Coulter, because he just can't be read quickly. And also, it's good to sit and think for a while on what his characters have to say and experience. Same way with Flannery O'Connor. I've mostly been reading her nonfiction work Mystery and Manners, which I would say is one of those books on writing that everyone ought to read, along with Stephen King's On Writing, William Strunk Jr's and E.B. White's Elements of Style, William Zinsser's On Writing Well, and William Goldman's Adventures of the Screen Trade. And, if you're into that sort of thing, the AP Stylebook.

     This week's movie of study for Gothic Film and Lit was Crimson Peak, which started well, but unraveling quickly into a horror movie that just didn't work - the harshest critique a story can have. Dr. Mackie and I hate horror movies, so there was that part of it, but Kenzie likes them, and even she wasn't a fan. Tom Hiddleston did well in his role, and there were some good ideas as far as storyline or plot developments, and it had a lot of the traditional Gothic elements (creepy mansion, ghosts, a secret, naive young woman, murder) but there was far too little backstory and far too many unanswered questions by the end. Also, all three of us vehemently wanted the heroine to die, which can't be a good sign.
     The Predators crushed the Blackhawks in game two of their first-round series, and in other NHL action today, Ottawa beat Boston in overtime, Toronto defeated Washington halfway through double overtime, and the Ducks put out the Flames. In NBA news, the Thunder start their first-round series against the Rockets tomorrow night.

     Tom Sawyer went fairly well both nights; the audiences were mostly responsive and animated, and also fairly high in terms of numbers: maybe twenty-five Thursday, thirty-three Friday, and only about a quarter of those were comp tickets. It's kind of sad that thirty people is an enormous audience, but that's the way it is with the RSU Theater Department.
     I played the voice-acting role of Sid Sawyer, Tom's insufferable half-brother, who is, in the words of Derek Steeley, "the Eddie Haskell of American literature." And he's right; Sid is (shudder). So that's partially how I played him, although I was primarily thinking of Waldo from The Little Rascals. (Indignant shudder.) Most lines were voice-acted, as it was a staged reading, which meant only key scenes were acted out. My actual character was Doc Robinson, whose only purpose is to be the brutally-slain murder victim of Injun Joe in the graveyard. Cody played Tom's friend Joe Harper, Keirstine (Jennifer from last spring's "Tales From Tent City") was Becky Thatcher.

     Jimmy Fallon was the host of Saturday Night Live this week, and about half the sketches were really funny. For SNL, that's a good average. The cold open was making fun of Trump again, which was pretty snicker-worthy. - it features someone in a Grim Reaper costume, which instantly brought to mind Jacob's Killer from "Go With the Flow," one of our SWAT skits. (Our blooper reel still cracks me up. And MAN do I miss everybody....) Another good SNL sketch tonight was a date getting crashed in the most awkward way imaginable by the woman's ex, with the punch line stating that he was the one responsible for dragging the guy off the United flight the other day. And they didn't have the best reputation in the first place even before that - remember the (parody?) tune "United Breaks Guitars"? Another was a time-traveling version of Family Feud. 

     Haven't been able to get much work done today on essays and stories that need to be written, but that's part of why I'm typing this post - hopefully it'll kick-start my word output. Sometimes that happens. But anyway, it was time for an update.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Stormy Weekend

     It's been a stormy weekend; not violent, just there, enough to remind you that you live in Oklahoma, and ponder curiously how much the weather plays a role in our daily lives (even if we aren't storm-crazy, like Stephen, Justin and Ashleigh from the BCM.) Speaking of which, Justin and Ashleigh just started a photography business, so that's cool.
     So I've stood outside in the light misty rain and watched a lot of enormous lightning, which has been followed by the sizzling type of thunder.

     Spent most of the weekend retyping old essays, I still like the one from Comp II about fairy tales. The 2002 Spider-Man is on for background noise at the moment. The Manchurian Candidate, a 1962 suspense movie starring Frank Sinatra, was the OETA Movie of the Week, and it was really good. Also interesting was the 2001 movie The Others, starring Nicole Kidman as a paranoid overprotective mother in post-WWII England. It was this week's movie in Gothic Film and Lit, and it was a terrific ghost story.

     At the start of Wednesday's psych class, knowing most of the class was freaked out by the test on Monday afternoon, Dr. Marrero sits down on a stool and looks at us gravely. "What do you guys know about buffalo?" he asks. (I thought, though I didn't say, "DON"T PET THEM!" SGYC reference. Still no word about a 2017 edition.) Silence in room. "Well, what do you know about cows?" More silence. "When there's a storm, cows will go crazy, running this way and that. They try to avoid a storm when it's on the way. But buffalo are smart. When buffalo see a storm coming, they run through the storm, because they know they'll get out of it quicker that way." (Here my eyes light up and I figure out the point of this rousing inspirational speech, delivered quietly in a pleasant monotone.) "When you see an obstacle, just push back against it as best you can and try to move forward through it. I don't know, you guys might not think this stuff is interesting, but I enjoy learning about animals. Specially buffalo. And horses!" So, BE LIKE RUMBLE.

     Dr. Marrero's speech reminded me of what Professor Semrow said once. I'm using one of my essays for her Intro to Lit course as a Capstone artifact.
     I need to write a short story and rewrite my main Capstone essay and reflective paper, but other than that I don't think there's much homework at the moment.

     With it being the start of another month on Saturday, the list of stuff on Netflix changes. In April, almost all of the Whedonverse will disappear, which I am not too thrilled about. (Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. is still safe, as part of the MCU.) I don't care about Angel, or at least haven't seen it, because I'm not a huge Buffy fan. (Though a Whedon-led show about a private investigator does sound good when you just hear that sentence.) And Buffy is really useful as resource material when you're an English major, due to the coming-of-age and Gothic aspects. And the impact on pop culture. Firefly is a bizarre mashup of Western and sci-fi, and it works brilliantly, particularly when it comes to snappy dialogue or character development. Dollhouse is fascinating because most episodes the main characters play several wildly-divergent roles at a time, so it's interesting to study from an acting perspective. (Also, most of the cast was either from Buffy or Firefly, or would be reused in Agents.)

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Anxiousness Isn't Fun

     There's a San Jose-Minnesota hockey game on quietly for background noise, but this just isn't a productive day. At all. I'm not sure why. The storyboard presentation this morning for Pop Market went fairly well, considering that I can't draw very well, and don't especially like speaking in public. (Acting is different - that's great.) It was for a short story that was due a couple weeks back.
     Tried to take a nap this afternoon, but that didn't work. Got four hours sleep Sunday night, and then overslept this morning (on six hours), waking up at 8:13 for an 8:30 class. Lots of aimless walking just to be doing something.

     The Thunder were destroyed by the Monstars Warriors last night, which didn't help yesterday, either. There was a fight, and lots of "accidental" bodychecking on our players. Which made Twitter more entertaining, at least, seeing Elizabeth and Daniel P. both going berserk. Yesterday was maybe worse than today. It's hard to tell, it's just been a very bad stretch of days.
     I think I bombed yesterday's psych test on theories of criminology. (Update: just found the grade - 82, which is frustrating because most of my wrong answers were just stupid mistakes.)

     The capstone project is due in like two weeks and it's not going very well at all. I was talking to Lauren in the hallway this morning, and we agreed that Capstone feels like that point in working on a novel where everything looks far too crappy to bother with finishing, but where you're too far into the project to give up completely. That's not a good place to find your writing in. But it's where all of mine seems to be, more or less, for the last roughly six months or so. And so your confidence is shattered all to pieces, which continues everything else schoolwise into a downward spiral. Writing is what English majors do. So if that's not working....uh, anxiety spikes up even more than usual.
     It seems like I've been flickering between "extremely stressed/exhausted/despondent but still capable of decent work" and "unable to function" all of college, really, but more so as time's gone by, and since coming to Eagleton Claremore this year. More especially this semester.

     Of Gothic Film and Lit stuff, I think the only things I'll probably ever come back to are Daphne du Maurier's Rebecca and Stephen King's Shining, because they're both written extremely well. (An occasional dose of King is helpful when studying how to put sentences and paragraphs together, and looking at how word choice give insight into characters, because while the man has a twisted imagination, yes, he knows his craft extremely well.) This week's book is Shirley Jackson's We Have Always Lived in the Castle, which has that Shirley-Jackson-sense-of-indefinite-wrongness for sure. And there is a house fire that is described far too well - that was unpleasant. Panic attacks aren't fun.
     Been rereading L.M. Montgomery's The Story Girl to counteract school stress. I don't like it all that much, but almost any Montgomery is well-done and has noteworthy quotable passages. Also, The Golden Road is the sequel to The Story Girl, and I'm probably going to reread The Golden Road before graduation, because it's that kind of book. And it's one of my three favorite Mongomerys ever.

     Speaking of some of my favorite authors, the RSU Theater Program's play this semester is a fairly-accurate adaptation of Tom Sawyer. Even secondhand and distilled, Mark Twain humor still works very well. I have my doubts about how well it will actually be performed, though - it runs in about three weeks and there haven't been any rehearsals yet, and no one has any details on them, either. They were supposed to start yesterday, and at least a quarter of the original cast has dropped out.
     Mingo Valley is doing The Wizard of Oz this semester, which will be fantastic. Not sure if I'll be able to see it, but Paige plays the Wicked Witch, which sounds like a great role.

     No word of SGYC news, though GBC-Tulsa leaders are scouting possible locations for a new youth camp beginning in 2018. Don't know if I'd even be available to help this year at SGYC, because I don't know if I'll get a summer internship with the Creek Nation. But other than that I don't really have many options available work-wise. Been revising/editing fiction to maybe release on Kindle, and batting around a couple also-for-Kindle nonfiction projects, but that won't make a living, though it would be a place to start from.

     On the plus side, saw Doctor Strange last week (FINALLY), so I'm current on MCU movies. It was weird, but worthy. There was almost no humor, and what there was was excessively deadpan or physical comedy. Trevor loved it, said it was the most hilarious MCU movie yet. (He's wrong. That's Guardians.) Seeing Benedict Cumberbatch use an American accent was very unsettling. Rachel McAdams plays the love interest, which was a good casting choice. There was a ton of Eastern spiritualism, of course, but there were also - maybe more so than any other MCU movie yet - lots of Christian messages, because the director is a very outspoken Christian. PluggedIn has lots to say on this matter in this post. So overall, it feels a lot like most of the books we've studied in classes - "some good, some bad, a little of both," to paraphrase Peter Quill. And lots of room for discernment. (That link talks a lot about Buffy, whose series finale was viewing for Gothic Film and Lit a couple weeks ago. It was a very good way to end the show, though I'm still not totally comfortable with it overall.) 
     The newest MCU Netflix show, Iron Fist, sounds like a horrible idea from Dad's description, and reviews don't particularly care for it at all. I'll probably skip it. Daredevil I liked aspects of, but barely managed to trudge through the first season due to the excessive violence and glacial pace. (One of the highlights in this very bleak and dark tale of a blind lawyer ninja - the villain makes and eats breakfast in one scene. It's almost as terrifying as Jurassic Park dinosaurs. Other highlights: Thought-provoking quotes on vision, and Fulton from The Mighty Ducks is the best friend.) Jessica Jones is a very interesting character, but I've only watched a couple episodes, and haven't seen Luke Cage, either.
     I think I'm going to watch Spider-Man now - it's inspiring and happy. And maybe The Princess Bride or While You Were Sleeping. Or Parks and Rec. Still TWO MORE WEEKS until the Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. return, and I want to know what's going on inside the world of the Framework!!!!!

Sunday, August 21, 2016

CAMP: Part X - These Are The Days

     Camp is always different, even though it's always pretty much the same. But the 2016 edition of the Sovereign Grace Youth Camp somehow managed to be very much both alien and familiar. The subtitle of this post comes from a little-known song of Keith Urban's, from his album Be Here. 
     For one thing, families were allowed to stay the week, too; that worked out fairly well, for the most part. All 12-year-olds were able to come again this time, and while it was probably too soon for some campers, others had no trouble adjusting to the rhythms of SGYC life during the week at Beth-Eden.
I snapped this one morning in 2012, but it works well as a stock photo.

     It was a little unclear whether we would even be having camp this year, as only three people had signed up by the deadline. So families were allowed to stay the week as well, which added several more faces to mealtimes. 44 campers signed up total, an even number of guys and girls, which was convenient during the Virginia Reel. 14 of those kids were rookies. Only two of the three wings of the guys' cabin were used, and the girls said that about three-quarters of their bunks were empty. For the Tournament Challenge, only four teams were used, which resulted in a rather awkward restructuring of the schedule, and neither Team Black nor Team Yellow taking part this year.
     From Tulsa, our group consisted of returnees Mattie, Caleb, Trenton and Hope, plus our rookie Seth. Lydia Alpert rode with us, too. Lots of people said that it was just too expensive for what they paid for(especially compared to other camps). The price($170) did seem a little steep for the experience. Others said that they didn't feel like going because none of their friends would be there. That makes sense, though I would say that that's when you go for those younger than you, to make sure that they have a good experience. And maybe people didn't come because they didn't want to listen to Curtis Knapp preaching all week.
     Anyway, other counselors (besides Tim and Terry, obviously) were Tom Henry, Brother Larry, Ryan Butler, his brother Mark, Janets Crawford and Pokorny, Rachel Silverberg, her brother Zach and Abbey Underwood.

     It felt extremely strange that Zach Silverberg and Mark were asking me for directions on what proper counselor behavior and camp etiquette is, though it shouldn't have, really. I was there at Beth-Eden for five years as a camper and then this was my fourth year as a counselor, so I knew the procedures and schedule and all that. More just the fact that I was now in kind of a middle rung, between the pastors and the rookie counselors as far as respect and stuff.
     My and Mark's cabin was very quiet and well-behaved for the most part. Even Strobe wasn't too terrible. Caleb's cabin, patrolled by Ryan and Zach S., was the wild and crazy (and much more fun) one this year. They threw Jolly Ranchers as grenades at each other, had pillow fights and candy stampedes, and I think I heard something about wrestling and push-up contests.

     Another strange thing, though by now it shouldn't be strange at all (and mostly isn't any longer) - The vast majority of my generation campwise is married and/or have kids by now.  I knew this, of course, but I think it was driven home since Amanda's second daughter Elora and Shari's daughter Lucy were born the week before camp started. Kaitlin got married this summer, and Matt got engaged. Jon has a girlfriend now(which is awesome and teaseable), the list could go on for miles - I think there's maybe three folks I knew well who are single. And that's all good. It's part of the stage of young-adult life that we're all at now...but in the beautiful misty morning Missouri light cleaning the showerhouse, it really hits home that we didn't pay attention to Taylor Swift's advice.

     Mom and Mrs. Cox drove us up there, and except for getting slightly lost in Springfield looking for a Casey's, we got there all in one piece without anything strange going on. Uh, well, okay....not quite. Caleb and Hope began a staring contest at the Missouri border, and it ended in a draw thirty-six miles (and twenty-five minutes) later. They're still arguing about Simmons' merits as a character on Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D., and that argument began roughly last November. (FYI: I side with Hope on this one. Simmons is amazing.) The boys also chomped through twelve sticks of gum at a time, for some reason. It looked disgusting. But they had fun.
     There were an overwhelming number of Batmans and Captain Americas for theme night(Superheroes), and Markie won the costume contest, as she has every year that it's been held. I was a S.H.I.E.L.D, agent, since I doubted anyone else would fill that niche. But maybe there was a bit of Hydra lurking around the edges - there always is, on the show. And something just didn't quite add up this year, for some reason. I couldn't quite put my finger on it, exactly. Maybe that the routine was almost too routine; most of us could follow the day's progress in our sleep. It's a nice blend of mental and physical exercise, yeah, but maybe the schedule needs a change.

     Standing in line for lunch one day, Mrs. Boyer complained that she was starving, and wondered why, since she'd eaten breakfast a couple hours earlier. Ryan and I pointed out that we'd all been running all over the place, and keeping Super Alert at the same time, which drains a lot of energy. Courtney asked once we got back what the level of focus was, and so I tried to explain it: About the same as for watching Amy, but multiplied in general by however many campers there are, more specifically divided by gender. End result? That takes a lot of energy.

     Curtis's first sermon was on the Ten Commandments, running through a fire-and-brimstone list of all the ways humanity in general could be sinful. It wasn't quite as squirm-inducing as Jeff Johnson's use-the-Bible-as-a-sledgehammer messages, but it wasn't easy to pay attention to, either. And this was made worse by the fact that the counselors' and visitors' benches along the back wall weren't there. So we had to make several rows of chairs, which helped from a discipline standpoint, but made it harder to get rested, too. (If you look at pictures of previous camp years, the counselors in the background of general sessions always look half-dead, due to the constant focus and hustling from place to place. It doesn't matter how good the sermons are, that's just what happens. You take notes if you're feeling particularly awake.)
     The second sermon was a further listing of further sins, and beyond that I had to look up the subject matter on SermonAudio, because I had forgotten the rest of them. The next two sermons(Tuesday night and Wednesday morning) were titled "The Justice of God in Dealing with Lawbreakers," with a main text of Revelation 20:11-15, and "The Justice of God in the Damnation of Sinners," from Luke 16:19-31, the story/parable of the rich man in hell and the beggar Lazarus. All of those are topics which probably should be taught when appropriate, because they're covered in Scripture, but an audience of teenagers and small children seems like the wrong place for those particular sermons. After the talent share things got a little better, "The Mercy of God in Propitiation"(Mark 14:32-36) and "The Mercy of God in Justification"(Philippians 3:1-9). The final two sermons on Thursday night and Friday morning were on the healing of the paralytic from Mark 2:1-12 and the leper in Mark 1:40-46. From experience, I know that no camper listens all that well on Thursday night because of the anticipation of finding out who won the Tournament Challenge and the book-signing time(and being allowed to stay up late). Then on Friday morning there's the dread of having to pack and leave and not see these people for a whole year.

     Brother Larry's tabernacle group sessions to the 18-and-19-year-olds on the need for righteousness were terrific, based on the one I heard on Thursday. Ryan taught a group session on the need for discernment, which I sat in on in the chapel on Wednesday when he was speaking to the 14-and-15-year-olds. That was a good one, too. Tim's group session message was a lightning overview of the Bible's overall storyline, particularly dealing with the Old Testament. The 12-and-13-year-olds paid a lot more attention to that than they usually do.

     Among the family members attending were Ryan's wife Mandi and their sons Eric and Jonathan. I played a lot of air hockey with the boys while supervising swim-time table tennis, and tried to teach them (and campers) ping pong, with varying degrees of success. The Butlers are still a bit too young to learn the game, but the campers did well. Tim's wife Angie and kids Jenna, Caleb and Ben were also there, along with Curtis' wife Catherine and about a million small Knapps. Noah and Ali Johnson were tagging along for the third year in a row, thrilled about going back to Indonesia in September, and another family from Ryan's church in Arkansas were there, a mother and the two politest kids I think I've ever met. The older boy, Chris, latched on to me just like Eric and Jonathan did. That was kind of fun.
     Among the guys I played ping pong with were Nathan Knapp, Michael Henry, Zach Hill, Nathan Underwood, Ethan Stewart, Jon Kobb and Hunter Bebout. And I taught Christopher Underwood how to add topspin to serves, only later realizing how frightening the results of that could be, being as he's an Underwood, and therefore brilliant by genetics at table tennis.

    Dylan and Grace Underwood came to visit Wednesday night during the talent share, bringing their (adorable) sons along to visit with their (many) uncles and aunts. (Further proving my point about us all growing up, as they met as first-year counselors and were married by the next July.) And naturally, those uncles and aunts dominated the talent share, as Jacob, Brett, Markie and Rosie teamed up as the Dischwood Quartet for a couple harmony-filled songs. Also visiting were Alexa and Zach Hankins; it was great to see them again and hang out for a bit. Autumn Brashers also visited.

     I was in charge of cabbage ball again this year, and that went pretty well. It was only twice that I had to call an automatic out for throwing the bat, and I didn't get anywhere near as much flak for my umpriing calls as I did last year(that I could hear, anyway). And most of that flak was good-natured teasing, not disgruntled bitterness. Mark helped out a lot with close calls at first and second bases, and Ryan watched third base when he had time.
     Mattie, Hope, Lydia, Seth and Trenton's Green team stomped all over Blue 10-2 on Tuesday morning, and Caleb's White team pounded Blue 18-7 that night in Worst/First play. (In other events, Red beat White in three sets on the volleyball court, Blue defeated White 14-7 in ping pong and Red topped Green in both Bible Jeopardy and archery.)
    Wednesday's cabbage ball game was won by Green, 9-3 over White, and other even final scores included Red winning volleyball over Blue, Red winning ping pong over White, and Green defeating Blue in volleyball by a 11-5, 8-11, 11-1 score.
     Thursday's cabbage ball action featured Green soundly thrashing Red 12-1 and then Red crushing Blue (to an embarrassing extent) 10-1. It got so out of hand that at one point when Blue asked me about a possible strategy, since they were trying so hard to catch up and we were rapidly running out of time, I said "You're behind by a million miles. Y'all can do whatever you want!" This caused giggles in the assorted fans watching. Also cheerfully laugh-inducing were Abigail's valiant efforts to inspire her team: "We're Blue, team! Like the sky! See that sky? Millions of people have been inspired by skies just like that one to do amazing things, like paint pictures and compose brilliant music! We can win this game! Team Inspiration!!!!" In other events, White beat Blue in archery, Green beat Red in ping pong, White beat Blue in Bible Jeopardy, and Green beat White in volleyball. This set up a tie for first place, as both Green and Red had six points each.  
     Stats for the Tulsa folks, which I figured up while bored one day once we got back: Mattie was 7-11 with 3 RBIs and three runs scored, Trenton was 9-11 with two home runs - including a grand slam - and four doubles, a triple, 6 RBIs and four runs scored. Caleb was a perfect 7-7 at the plate with an RBI and three runs scored, Hope was 5-7 with two doubles, two RBIs and two runs scored, and Seth was 3-9 with a double and a triple, three RBIs and four runs scored.

     Book-signing time went well, there was a lot of ping pong, several chess matches and games of Jenga, plus lots of scurrying here and there, but not very many pictures. There weren't hardly any taken all week, which was unusual. And there were definitely no Nerf gun fights. Mrs. Boyer ran the girls out of the dining hall about 11 p.m., and I let the guys play ping pong for another hour before switching off the lights about fifteen minutes after midnight. Most all the guys were asleep by one; apparently a couple girls stayed awake talking til four, according to a rather disgruntled Mrs. Boyer at breakfast.

     On Friday morning, while the rest of us munched on cinnamon rolls and finished signing each other's books, the final Bible Jeopardy tiebreaker was given to the teams: Name the seven things Jesus said on the cross. After some figuring, the answers were these: committing His spirit to the Father, asking the Father to forgive the people, asking for Mary to be taken care of, forgiving the thief on the cross, asking for water, wondering why He'd been fosaken, and finally "It is finished."
     Both sides got the answer to this question right. (So did Janet Crawford and Mississippi campers, after Googling on her phone.) So the backup emergency tiebreaker had to be put into play: What were the Hebrew names of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego? (Nobody had any clue on this one.) The answer, apparently, was Hananiah, Mishael and Azariah. The winners were Green, as they got all three right. So they won the Tournament Challenge this year with seven points, while Red had six, White three and Blue one.

     Some of the rookie campers definitely shouldn't really have been there. Some of the family members  probably shouldn't have been there. But there will always be a couple people like that. Lord willing, they'll have picked up something along the week that will change their behavior. Until then, as a counselor, the best you can do is scribble "You are moderately evil. But I hope you have a good year anyway" in their camp books. And then pray for them throughout the year, as you pray for all the kids.
     You always ask yourself, "Was it worth it? Did I actually make a difference in these kids' lives?" The immediate answer, I think this year, for me, was a resounding "No, you didn't. It wasn't worth it this year." But it is still a worthwhile endeavor, I think; it's just that this year was more about survival, with only 44 campers. Mrs. Boyer and Tom Henry were the only folks from St. Louis; even Robin wasn't there this time. At some point everyone will decide that healthwise they just can't do this any longer. Hopefully some of the younger kids will be back as campers when they're old enough, but the number of participating churches has shrunk over the years, and the amount of kids from each church has plummeted. I don't know what the future holds for SGYC, any more than I know what it holds for me personally. But it's been a wonderful ministry in the past, and the Lord has worked very much through the camp. Looking through all these camp-book signings, as it's literally written cover-to-cover again, maybe I did make a difference. It's hard to tell sometimes.

     Mr. and Mrs. Wilson drove us back to Tulsa, and nothing out of the ordinary occurred on the return trip. We ate lunch at a McDonald's in Elkland, and one of the employees was a man with Down's, which I found interesting and awesome. Enjoyed getting to talk with Trenton while we were eating. As soon as we got home I was finishing my final project for my summer course, and then the following Tuesday Courtney and Mattie left for Florida and North Carolina as they went to see Kerra and go to a new (to us) camp called Snowbird in the Appalachians of western North Carolina, which is something like reformed theology at Falls Creek, from what I've heard. The GBC youth group might go there next summer, if they can raise enough money through fundraisers and stuff. Or they might go to Glorieta, New Mexico. That'll all be figured out over the winter/spring.

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CAMP BOOK SIGNINGS -

"best counselor ever! :) Michael Henry"

(Anna Knapp's signature)

(Daniel Pokorny's signature)

"Great to meet you, Keegan"

"Hi Wesley! It was nice seeing you this year. - Caroline, Isaiah 55:12"

"Thanks for doing cabbage ball! It is so nice to see you each year! Markie"

"Sup, your awesome. - strooobe"

"Dear Wesley, Thank you for being a counselor for such a routy bunch. I had a good time and hope you did to. God bless, Nathan"

"You are the best referee(if that's what it's called in baseball) Hope to see you again next year! Abigail S."

"It was good to see you this past week! Seth" (This was written inside the front cover, as on a different page he had written "Sup dude. You're my sister-" before realizing that Mattie's book was lying right next to mine. We all thought this mistake was pretty hilarious.)

""Hey Wesley, I had a lot of fun having you as a counselor and cabbage ball umpire. I hope you come back next year! - Trenton"

"CALEB!!! YO"

"Wes, good to meet you and call you friend. Zach" (This was Counselor Zach, as his group called him.)

"Hope you had a great week! Abbey U."

"Thanks for letting me slide in cabbage ball and for being a great counselor! - Mary J."

"Wesley, it's always good to see you! Hope you had a fantastic week! Hope to see you next summer. Valley"

"Wesley, you were a great counselor. Thank you! Cara Knapp"

"Your so cool! And a great counselor. - Belynda"

"Gr8 ping-ponging! Jonathan Kobb"

"Wesley, thank you so much for taking time out of your week to counsel us! :) Your a great counselor! Brett"

"Wesley, thank you so much for coming to camp with us again! cabbage ball was a lot of fun. :) - Abbi"

"Thanks for being such a cool counselor, Wesley! - Mattie"

"Had fun during cabbage ball! Zach"

"Dear Wesley, thank you for all you did and for being a great conselor - Lester :)"

"Hey Wes! Good to see you this year! Hunter B."

"Hey Wesley! Thanks for always being such an awesome counselor and for laughing with us tonight. I will pack my slingshot next year :-D - Emily Pokorny" {I had dinner with her and Jon Kobb Thursday night, and somehow we got to talking about weapons, of all things. Emily mentioned that she was a decent aim with her slingshot, and Jon asks, completely serious, "Did you bring it here with you?" She and I dissolve into hysterical laughter.}

"Dear Wesley, Thanks for your love for the Lord & the young people at camp. You have been such a great encouragement to me over the years we've been at camp together. I will never forget the time you sang "Amazing Grace" and it left me in tears. Continue to seek Him first always. God willing - next year. Love, Janet C."

"Wesley, Great week spent w/you! Always encouraging and never dull - that's you! Love you! Miss Terry :)"

"You were a great counselor my first year. Thanks! :) Nathan U." (Like all Underwoods, he has amazing handwriting.)

"Wesley, Thank you so much for giving your time this week to make camp the wonderful thing that it is. You're a great counselor! Hope to see you next year! In Christ, Jacob" (He's basically a lock to be a rookie counselor next year, and it'll be great to work alongside him.)

"Press on toward the goal of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus! Curtis Knapp"

"Wes I had a blast doing cabbage ball with you. God bless you :) Mark"

"Great to see you again this year. I pray the LORD will direct your path. Blessings, Mrs. Janet P."

"Wesley, Thanks for being so stinkin' awesome! You are a great friend! - Hope"

"Hey Wes, Good to see you again this year. I'm glad to see you're continuing faithful in your walk with Christ. - Rachel S."

"Wesley, It is always a joy to see you and to serve with you at camp! May the Lord bless you! Ryan"

"It was great having you as a counselor again - Lydia C. Alpert"

"I'm sure many of the kids tell you this, but you're a very fun and great counselor! I hope to see you next year, Lord willing. - Ethan"

Sunday, August 30, 2015

From the Blue Notebooks, Vol. 9

     The last portion of the blue-notebook journals I kept off and on in high school. Editorial comments are in brackets; I just got back from D.C. on Youth Tour as we start this post.

     Sunday, 6-26-11
     Hey,
     Wellsir, as Uncle Billy Watson would say, "No rest for  the wicked, and the righteous don't need none." Been busy doing something since the 10th, every day. Ken is real bad sick, maybe a stroke, they don't know exactly, but he had to move into the nursing home[where he used to work, and his little sister Nina lived]. They're taking it pretty hard. Saw Nano on Wednesday, she seemed in pretty good health. Dayla's kinda mad at Mom, we missed archery(but nearly everyone else did, too. It was scheduled at an odd time.) Cars 2 came out on Friday. I've nearly got all of my pictures onto Facebook, guitar is going all right, but barre chords are a bit tough. The Coxes were in Dallas visiting family, so Ryan taught Sunday school instead, it was good, about legalism. Hopefully I can get some school done this week. Camp is the 25th-29th, it'll be Courtney's first year, she's pretty excited. It'll be nice to go back.

     Wednesday, 7-13-11
     Hey,
     It's been hot. First time in 14 or 15 days the high was only in double digits. Got all my DC pictures up, & got the official pics, too. Lorene leaves for the national YLC on Saturday. Swifty died of heatstroke. :/ Mom got another baby Alpine goat named Frolic, she's cute. And tiny. We saw Cars 2 at the Orpheum in Okmulgee. It was really good, but I can't make comparisons until I see it again. Full-blown spy movie. It was supposed to be the last archery today, but Dean totally forgot about it, so it was moved to August 24. Spent most of last week installing furniture at Morris' new elementary school, & we moved the last session of Henry V to Monday. Me & Samara got a practice in on "Temporary Home", we made some progress. Needs a bit more work on the timing, though. Just about got registered for the ACT, that's good, I guess. Trying to finish my algebra book by September. The NFL & NBA lockouts are still going on... Ken isn't doing much better. We went to Louise & Harry's last night to see Trish, Vonda & her kids, Grandpa stopped by, too. Good times. Softball should start soon, & football on its heels. And we'll find out who made Oklahoma Living, too.

     Tuesday, 7-19-11
     Hey,
     Sport died. 12 years, 3 months & 5 days old in people years, that's about 86 in dog years. We'd just moved to Morris, I was 6, and Courtney hadn't had her first birthday yet. Horrible way to start the day, huh? Then Dad ran his truck over a bucket of white Kilz, spraying it all over the side. (He got most of it washed off.) Everyone's been irritated, there's a huge mountain of algebra awaiting me, and I only got three loads of laundry done. Pretty terrible day. At least there's camp on Monday. This has been a bad month for pets. Still triple-digit temps every day.

     Wednesday, 8-3-11
     Hey,
     Camp was a huge blessing. [See the year's recap there; the next year was even more so.] Frisbee, ping pong, good teaching, friends(re: Ashland, Jed, Jon Lange, Matt, Daniel Noah, Madelyn, Marshall, Eva, Joanna Ivie, etc., etc., etc.) It was fun. And also scary. Sam & Jed both passed out, & Eva gashed her eye open. It was a really different year, a full third of the campers were new. I think the Lord will keep blessing the camp, we've all gotten a lot out of the teaching, I think Courtney enjoyed it. [This was the year of the black eye due to the touch football game.] She got a FB, too. Senior year started Monday, hopefully I'll survive, lol. Little sick lately. I got into Oklahoma Living, due to spacing issues, they couldn't run the journal entries, & since they needed something about Youth Tour, and I had the only (I think) complete summary, it was inserted and seen all over the state. Pretty awesome, really. It got to 113*F this afternoon, it's crazy hot. The NFL will go on as scheduled, the NBA, probably not. I might get to do some stuff for Vype's website, I'll meet with the editor of the Eastern OK magazine Friday after guitar. [This did not work out. Also, OKBlitz had just shut down.] I'm getting close to getting the playing by tabs. Not fire-my-guitar-into-the-wall close, but that Plain of Discouragement close. Jed has a very large crush on Samara...haha. [It was funny....then. Later? Not so much.] Josh is in Wisconsin, the Wrights just got back from their last family vacation, to Yellowstone & Mount Rushmore, before Cody leaves for boot camp in Nov.

     Tuesday, 8-16-11
     Hey,
     Started the Teaching Textbooks Algebra 2 from the Muellers, it's actually making sense! Not sure how often I'll write, Herman & Larry want more space in the Free Lance, and the Dewar lady, Sunny Tiger, might do their football again. So, softball, or just a few football, or nothing til basketball, Idk. Going to do a bit for the Vype website. Amanda & Jed have had some relationship troubles, looks like I'll be Dusty again... [Reference to one of my fictional characters.] Trevor's birthday is tomorrow, he's extremely excited. He'll be nine. I need something to happen....it's kind of lonely doing school & talking to friends through FB & texting. If the Nolands did drama, that'd be great...but otherwise, though I'd enjoy it somewhat, it just wouldn't be worth the effort. Looked around Books-A-Million today. [This was the night Bennett and Courtney were initiated into the GBC youth group; Sam helped us kidnap Courtney on the way to CherryBerry. It was fun. And gave us something more to tease her with.] I want, somehow I need, to get at least one book published. I just hope when I do, it'll be a good one. But hey, if that's not what God has planned for me, well, I'll be okay with that. Frolic's growing well, we've had Copper nearly a year, Sunny has been going downhill.

     Saturday, 9-3-11
     Hey,
     Been spending a lot of time looking at colleges. It's kind of scary. Overwhelming. Terrifying. Glad I have friends who tell me to relax. [Sam, Jed, Amanda, Ashland and Daniel were probably who I meant here.] Had a good talk with Ashland Tuesday, it was strange, but good. Registered for the SAT, October 1 at Bishop Kelley. Went to the Kellyville-Beggs game last night, it was my first HS game solely as a fan since fourth grade. Good to see Bill, Mickey, James & Larry again. We nearly had a mini-YT reunion, but me, Danielle & Bailey G. couldn't ever quite find each other. Jed's coming down in about three weeks, it'll be cool to see him again. Dad's working security in Stillwater, we might have a garage sale Saturday. Going through new songs at church, which is always good. Softball is nice to watch, but tough to write. hadn't had much time for fiction or guitar.

     Monday, 9-19-11
     Hey,
     It's been one of those times when there's a real conflict of emotions going on. Mimi's birthday was yesterday, she'd have been 64. It was kind of a tough day. Suzanna was baptized, & we sang an old song I know real well for the first time. Today was beautiful weather, algebra went pretty well, the SAT is less than two weeks away. We had a movie night at the Coxes' Friday, saw Facing the Giants then picked it apart afterwards. Pretty good discussion, we played a lot of chess, & grilled pizza. Jed's coming down next week, that should hopefully be cool. The garage sale didn't go so well, between eight and ten customers all day, & $75 profit. It feels wrong to not be covering football games. Need to do a lot of praying, Lizzie's been really discouraged, and Jed & Amanda are both pretty torn up as well. I don't want to take one side or the other, I just want it to be worked out however it should be. 9/11 was also tough. It was a weird feeling, it wasn't the kind you should have. It wasn't remembered anywhere near enough. We went to a Tulsa Shock game after church, it was like wrestling: An experience you want once, and then never repeated. Bad basketball, bored fans, & lesbians. Dad's inspection business is starting to pick up group, he's excited about that. I wish I could pen down all my feelings lately onto paper and be able to use them later. There's too much to write here. Book sale is this weekend.

     Sunday, 10-2-11
     Hey,
     The book sale was great, like it always is. This week has been stressfull. Took the SAT at Bishop Kelley yesterday, we got there at 7:15 am, the test started at 8, and ended at 1:10 pm. There were about fifty or sixty people taking it, half of them Asian or India Indian. I think I did okay, but won't know til the scores come in in November. Mrs. Boyer and Jed came in from Lawton, their visit went pretty well. Mom & Mrs. Boyer got along pretty well, Trevor liked meeting Jed, there was a lot of ping pong. [A lot. We had to break in the new table, though, so...and when you have a houseful of extremely competitive people...] We had a cookout last night, Paige, Katie Carmichael & Samara came over. We also played some Apples to Apples. Me & Jed had a long theological discussion, on topics from the Christian's response to science and denomination differences to why we fear; and pondered our mistakes and desires, as well as whether or not we should study past failures to not repeat them(I say yes, he said to ignore the past, since we can't change it.) We stopping stopped at 1:40 this am because Dad wanted us to get to sleep, & we were keeping him awake. I'm worried. Not so much about me, now, but about Amanda, Jed and Samara. Pretty much, he dropped Amanda for Sam. He fell head over heels for her, & she for him, though doing a somewhat better job of hiding it. Mrs. Boyer doesn't approve, neither does her dad...it's a mess, and it's only going to hurt everyone involved. It's painful to watch, feeling so helpless, witnessing th genesis of yet another of the world's nasty breakups. On a lighter note, it was Marie's 18th birthday today, she's going to see TobyMac at the fair tomorrow night. Josh & Mr. Cox asked me to be assistant worship leader, I might start that in a week or two. Softball's done - is my sportswriting?

     Tuesday, 11-1-11
     Hey,
     I scored an 1800 on my SAT out of 2400, got a 660 in Reading(91st percentile), 620 in Writing(86th percentile) and 520 in math(51st percentile, hadn't taken geometry yet). I only got a 7 out of 12 for my essay. Oh, well. I have about two or three weeks of Algebra 2 left. I'm going crazy just spectating at games. I don't know how to just watch. Thursday is Senior Night, which is weird, and kind of sad. I've never known school culture, yet I think I understand some of what everybody'll go through. Last night was Halloween at Westville. It went better than expected. The best part? Talking to Nano & passing out candy to trick-or-treaters. Wish I would've brought my recorder. She was telling how she & Lois used to make popcorn balls, and one time a man in overalls, etc, walked right in and sat down on the couch! And they looked at him and wondered....and then he pulled his mask off & it was Julie Cagle, who came twenty miles just to play a prank on them. I feel irritated, lonely, sort of. The year's going by too fast. I don't feel like I belong anywhere(well, in a sense I don't), and an overwhelming grief for people in general, their sins and mistakes. I either need new songs to learn, or a new instrument to learn. I'd like to write something great. But maybe I just need to keep plowing along, with newspapers in smalls towns, and Facebook fiction nobody reads. Maybe I can serve God better in that way. I've got a tangled plot set in HS that I can't even make sense of, and a well-developing one in a setting I know needs work.

     Friday, 11-25-11
     Hey,
     Thanksgiving was yesterday, it went pretty well. Caleb, Trevor and I watched the Macy's parade, Tosh Fletcher was in it. We went to Grandpa's , ate, talked, watched the Dolphins-Cowboys game, visited everybody at Louise's, then came back for leftovers and dog petting. Lillyanne won the betting, she was two pts off as the Cowboys won 20-19 on a last-second FG by Dan Bailey. Ken died this morning. Kind of hard to process that yet. Applyed[applied] for a job at Beggs General Store, need to check on that. [Didn't get it.] Need to apply to colleges and take CLEP tests, but, that kind of takes money...and my acoustic is messed up, something wrong with the B string tuning peg, won't build up tension. Started as co-worship leader for the youth group last Sunday, that went okay, it'll take a few weeks for me & Josh to get the timing down. Samara's grandpa died a few weeks ago. It's been kind of tough knowing how to help. A nice old lady Jed knew died, he's having a tough time with that. Lfe's just been kind of stressful. I'm really missing Youth Tour, and thankful I got to experience that.

     Tuesday, 12-27-11
     Hey,
     First off, OSU won Bedlam in astonishing fashion 44-10. It wasn't enough to get to the national title game, though. Didn't get the job(or any at all) yet, Christmas went all right, it was like usual: Holiday-spirits for a few days after Thanksgiving, then guilt, fear, uncertainty and thankfulness. Got a new Bible, two sets of guitar strings and a Chick-Fil-A calendar. Geometry is making sense.

     (In the large gap here, I created this blog on the afternoon of February 24, while Mom was visiting with Trinnica.)

     Monday, 4-9-12
     Hey,
     In Louisville, KY fro the Together for the Gospel conference. Me, Josh, Dylan, Mr. Cox, Mr. Rusco, Mr. Pickard and Paul Stefan left at 8 am, stopping for gas and breakfast at Joplin's Kum and Go aroudn 11:30 am, a pack of Hostess donuts & Diet Coke makes a fine meal(and it's only $3.33). MO is a beautiful state, all through. Breathtaking. The road seems natural, to have grown there; you don't drive to make great time, you drive to have a great time. Crossed into IL at 3, SO IL is like Hwy 16 between Morris & Muskogee, with Maryland trees interspersed in thickets. SW IN is straight from Hoosiers, nothing but flat farmland. Passed by New Harmony, I can see the landscape Philip Gulley's characters live in. SE IN is hilly and wooded, freaky alone feeling. Spent two hours in Illinois, two in Indiana, got to the hotel(Galt House) at 8:30. The place is fancy. Even nicer than the Embassy or Hyatt in DC. We then after checking in went walking(WALKING) around Downtown Louisville at 9 pm, looking for a place to eat, we found this high-class place called Bistro 301. Bursting with culture here. It was an adventure something like jaywalking thru DC. Saw the Arch[from a very great distance], added three states to my 'been to' list, weird facts: Once we left OK, didn't see one toll booth nor casino. Conf starts tomorrow, we'll see how this goes. Nearly everyone else fell asleep. Sharing room w/Mr. Rusco, Dylan w/Mr. Cox, Josh w/Paul Stefan, Mr. Pickard has his own room, 19th floor.

     Tuesday, 4-10-12
     Hey,
     Second day(first full) in this city on the Mason-Dixon Line which produces 80% of the US bourbon supply and 90% of all disco balls[according to a brochure I found somewhere in the hotel]. Ate Panera for breakfast after a Starbucks run/Bible study time, ran into this black guy named Lasadhi, he was waiting for his bus, reading James 2 on his iPhone, we talked for about five minutes, then he prayed for us. Toured the Lousivlle Sligger Factory Museum, that was really cool. Italian place called Louigi's for lunch, much too $$ and food, these places are all like that. One meal is all you need for the day. Thank goodness for Clif bars. KFC Yum! Center is nice, 8000 people is quite a few for something non-sports-related. First day of the conference went well, preaching was good, the panel sessions interesting. Got 17 free books, we stalked Mr. Pickard halfway around the room before he spotted us, haha. Held a bat of the first guy they[Louisville Slugger} made bats for, watched how they make them, got scrapwood for free, they were playing "The Story of Us" on the speakers in the gift shop. Paul Stefan not feeling well most of today, walking all over this downtown is interesting, feel like it's an episode of Doc. Ohio River is enormous, wonderful scenery, neat buildings. Charging camera battery now.

     Thursday, 4-12-12
     Hey,
     This was a good trip. Glad I came. There isn't many times you know God's speaking to you, but this was one of those times. John Piper is a very good preacher. Of course, those other guys are, too. Messed up stomachs most of today, not that cool. We're okay now, though. Met Gunner yesterday, that was kinda neat, met a youth pastor at a Tulsa church named Joey; he was a character. Protein bars are good investments. Had dinner at this bar called Bluegrass Brewing Co(BBC), neat place. Mr. Cox and Mr. Rusco went to a special meeting on marriage after the session last night, me, Dylan and Josh watched SportsCenter, it was cool. [I was texting Sam there, too; trading updates of how the week was going. Josh's sister Natalie knocked most of her teeth out after a stroller accident.] The Yum! Center has some severe faults - Too few bathrooms(four) and too congested walkways. I like the Ford Center/OKC Arena/Chesapeake Arena and BOK Center much better. Good trip. [We all} had lunch w/Ana Marie yesterday, tomorrow's Friday the 13th. :/ Two weeks til enrollment meeting, one month until graduation. Early start tomorrow, better run.

     That's all.

Sunday, August 23, 2015

From the Blue Notebooks, Vol. 6

     This sixth installment of my spiral-bound high-school off-an-on attempts at journaling. Editorial comments are in brackets. As this post begins, it's late July 2010, and I'm to head to SGYC for the third time.

     7:16 am Monday, July 26, 2010
     Hey,
     Well, I get to break in this journal as I'm headed to camp. We're gonne get to the Missouri line in about an hour. Mariah had her birthday party yesterday, me, Courtney, Brenna, Roy, Levi, Annette, Quinton, Alton, JB, Julie, Emily, Evan, Billy and Kyle were there. [It was held at the YMCA pool.] It was a good time, & I discovered that Brenna looks TERRIFIC good in a bikini. ["Sighs". I hate swimming. Talk about shallow....the Scrabble board on my theme night T-shirt would prove this.] Well, I had a good time, & hoping camp goes well. [It didn't, really. But that was my fault; as I was extremely shallow and self-centered.]

     2:19 pm Wednesday, August 4, 2010
     Hey,
     The above sentence, while true, most likely should not have been written, specially on the way to church camp. Camp was very different, but it was another good year. Made some new friends, got a lot out of the teaching, & a couple of people were saved. [Got to know Jed and Jon really well this year, met Ashland's siblings Austin and Alexa, and I have no idea what the sermons were about, but I do remember some of them made me uncomfortable.] The Hollises gave us some apples Saturday night, we've been drying them on the trampoline. Our new kittens, Skittles & Benjy, are doing well, things are going okay.

     Wednesday, 8-18-10
      Hey,
      Well, I wrote five articles last week, two for the Free Lance & three for OKBlitz.com. The temperature finally cooled down, been doing school, cleaning, reading, & acting Spider-Man to thwart Skeet's boredom. He leaps the fence, then chases Skittles & Benjy, or some of the chickens. It's hard work keeping them in one piece. Haven't really been able to get any type of song wrote down, just partial lyrics. Same thing w/stories, some ideas, but not many. I'm the oldest guy in the youth group now, which is kinda odd. And since Josh, Dylan & Bennett can't really sing, all the guy parts in songs will be like solos, almost. 2 weeks and 2 days til football season, softball started Monday. This will be my 4th year of writing, which seems strange. What seems stranger is next year I'll be a senior. Trevor's birthday was yesterday, he was extremely enthusiastic about opening his presents. It was funny to watch. :) NaNa's gong to have her foot amputated Tuesday & I got to go to the dentist, AND it's a doubleheader softball day. Not really good, but good. If she doesn't have it taken off, she could die, my teeth need cleaning(and braces, but that's another story..), & softball means articles,  & possible contacts, & if the paper's budget can handle it, money. So, there's alot of good things, but also some not so great things. I'd play my guitar, but Jon Lange snapped the low E string at camp. And I don't really know how to play banjo, lol. [Still want to learn, though!]

     Monday, August 30, 2010
     Hey,
     Dylan & Paige Steeley were baptized last night, church was good, we didn't make it to Sunday School, still haven't fixed my guitar, Skeet's been jumping the fence & sometimes capturing chickens. Not a pretty sight. Football starts Friday, HHS is probably going to do badly again, but bad football is better than no football, right? School is going all right, trying to get through this year, & then plan ahead. Its kinda scary. Tomorrow it'll be 3 years since I first covered a game, gosh, has life sure changed. Dado hadn't been gone for long, Grandpa had just married hadn't been married long, I'd never been to Missouri in July, & we hadn't started watching AI yet. I've grown a lot as a person since then, but I still have a ways to go. Getting things ready to go to a new chapter in life, but knowing, hey, I'm only 17, I still have a lot to learn. Watched Paul Blart, Mall Cop tonight, it was good. [No, it isn't....it's stupid.] So is A Knight's Tale, those are the only two movies I've seen lately. [Yes, A Knight's Tale is a very good movie, if you can overlook Georffrey's habit of gambling his clothes away. That's awkward.]

     6:50 am Saturday, September 3, 2010
     Hey,
     Football season started last night, Henryetta 28-7. They played pretty well. Caleb & Amy have been sick all week, so we missed the HECNO(official name of homeschool group) meeting yesterday, which was a major bummer. I also missed a youth group movie night, which is only a slight bummer. NaNa had her foot amputated last week, rebab is going okay, I think. Jake Brown & Brenna Hollis both got on Facebook this week. Going to Tahlequah tonight for Harry's birthday party, that'll be cool. School's going okay, no word about if we'll do drama this year.

     Tuesday, September 14, 2010
     Hey,
     Well, we didn't go to Tahlequah, we missed the homeschool meeting(major disappointment), the church group meeting & church, didn't see anybody I knew really at the Morris game, haven't had any softball to write about, it's just been a dull, tiring three or four weeks. Got some strings, so I can practice again, a dog showed up on our porch last night. [This dog was Copper.] The library's book sale is Thursday thru Saturday,, & drama starts Friday, those are good things. Mom's birthday is tomorrow, MiMi's would be Saturday. I've kinda felt a little depressed lately. We installed an electric fence to keep Skeet in.

     Tuesday, October 5, 2010
     Hey,
     The homeschool group went to the Creation Museum in Cincinnati over the weekend, & I think they had a great time. Kyle & Breann are together, it seems, that's interesting. We babysat the Gundersen's Sheltie Teddy for a while, which went pretty well. Copper(the stray dog above) is doing well, and the backyard dogs, Swifty, the chickens, goats & cats all are doing okay. Sunday it was a year since we moved back in, it seems longer in some ways. How is it most of these journal entries are about other people? And what am I going to do with my life? I don't know, but I hope I find some answers.

     Saturday, October 23, 2010
     Hey,
     The dogs(not Copper) killed Skittles & Benjy. :'( I've had a need to write again, lately, so I penned a song & finished the outline of Dusty's story. Annette & JB wrote the script we're working on, it's funny, but it's another shallow, mindless comedy. It's frustrating, wanting to create something, but being saddled with mediocre talent. Guitar hasn't gone great, but I had a front page story in the Free Lance a couple weeks ago. Saw Brenna yesterday, we were at this mini-zoo in Okmulgee, it was pretty cool. Things have been a bit more stressful than usual. Thursday night was Beggs Senior Night, I've always wondered what that or Homecoming would be like. Henryetta's a pretty good town, but Morris is home, & Beggs is the county's tradition center. I was glad Beggs won. [Not sure what I meant about 'tradition center', but the Demons and Knights were facing each other at the new Beggs field. It was great to work with those guys in the press box again. Also, Kenny Chesney's newest single was "The Boys of Fall".]

     Wednesday, November 3, 2010
     Hey,
     Toy Story 3 came out on DVD yesterday, Mom found a great deal, & so we got it. It's great, but sad in a good way, like some country songs. Watching a Pixar movie is great inspiration, it makes you want to make something. Not just something shallow, or topical, or typical, but something that is above most things, that makes you think. I'm not there yet, but I hope to be, someday. Just need to do the best I can, when I can, and in the normal everyday times keep trying to plow through school, & understand it.

     Tuesday, November 9, 2010
     Hey,
     It's been 59 1/2 pages, two notebooks, 2 moves, & 2 years since I started this. OSU is ranked again, they'll probably lose to Texas like they fell to Tech. Nobody came for the discussion last night, I went & looked at old stuff I've kept in the barn. Good memories, but kinda bittersweet. I wondered if "that Brenna Hollis thing would go anywhere." Yes, because if I wanted, ti would. No, because I don't want to tear her apart like I did to Maddie. So, no, not really. Thanksgiving is coming up soon, we'll be headed to Tahlequah. I wish Mimi were here to talk to, that would be nice. It would also be nice to be able to move on forward with some plots that won't go, & know what I should be doing. Til I know, I'll keep doing algebra, Greek, writing, playing guitar, & spending time w/the animals. Well, I better go.

     11-10-10, 6:34 am
     I forgot to mention this last night, but Beggs & Kiefer are in the HS football playoffs again, like they were the first day. Henryetta & Dewar are as well.

Sunday, August 16, 2015

From the Blue Notebooks, Vol. 5

     The fifth part of recapping journal entries from the spiral-bound notebooks in which I tried to untangle my thoughts.Editorial comments are in brackets. We open with the dawn of a new decade; and attending a Brad Paisley concert.

     12:20 am, Friday, Dec 1, 2010
     Hey,
     Good day, it was restful. Played board games all night, Racko, Life & Scrabble, and skated in the family room. Watched football, OU beat Stanford in the Sun Bowl 31-27. First book I read this year was The Book of Virtues, a short story titled "Quality". First song K95 played this decade was "Suds in the Bucket" by Sara Evans, last song they played in 2009 was "Cowboy Casanova" by Carrie Underwood. What surprises, messups, good things and shockers will 2010 have?

     12:41 am, Saturday, Dec 2, 2010
     Hey,
     Okay, well. This new year nearly started with a catastrophe. Dad was painting the family room & the ladder fell, so he, Mom & Caleb  went to the ER, turned out nothing was broken, & then when they get back Mom noticed he'd been painting the walls the wrong color! Nothing humor can't fix :) It's good it ended well.

    Jan 11, 2010
    Hey,
    Hmm, been awhile since I wrote in this. Dad broke his wrist & tore his ankle. Ouch!! Decided to try writing songs. School is going pretty well good, even algebra. Oh, that reminds me. FB's been strange this week. All these girls kept posting their bra colors on there. Not just my age, either, even grownups. I was like, "Dude!" It was really embarrassing. I'm glad it's over. Not much has been happening with Webkinz, Dusty hasn't gotten in trouble & Dash hasn't found any great deals. The Diner is running nicely. Oh, I won tickets to a Brad Paisley concert last Monday, it was AWESOME. Really good. Justin Moore & Miranda Lambert were w/him. There were these 4 questions, you had to guess wrong in only 10 seconds. 1: How many months in a year? 13. 2: What's the opposite of big? Giant. 3: What planet do we live on? Mars. 4: What river runs through Tulsa? The Missouri. Got them from K95. Oh, the Dodge's alternator went out, we've just been using the Monster. Finally got "warm" outside, it was in the 40's today. Enough Alaskan weather!

     Friday, Jan 22, 2010
     Hey,
     The concert was awesome. :) Maggie got lost again. Liesel is in part-time outside cat training. Henryetta basketball is going all right, haven't really been in the loop on church stuff, no big surprise there. We were at Sunday school last week, though. Learning about genetics in biology, that's pretty interesting. Songwriting has been going okay, made one up about Ann the dog. [I do not remember this...must have not been very good.] I'll be directing part of the drama deal, that's exciting...& worrisome. Somehow I feel kind of drained emotionally right now....it's odd. Well, can't think of what else to write, I'll get going.

     Sunday, Jan 31, 2010
     Hey,
     There was an ice storm this past week, it wasn't that bad, the power was only out for about 18 hours. Biology is going pretty well, the rest, not so much. I've felt kind of restless, been practicing guitar, won't be directing this time, it'll be kind of a talent show. Super Bowl XXXIL is gonna be Sunday, Saints vs Colts. Go Saints! Then the Olympics are starting, and in 2 weeks is the Daytona 500. 4 some reason, I think in part cause there hasn't been anything bad happening lately, I feel kinda lonely. [This still happens....life's usually a series of crises. When there hasn't been any for a while, it's hard to know how to live.]

     Saturday, Feb 13, 2010
     Hey,
     Basketball is nearly over, been an okay season. Swiftdust has been good lately, the dogs and feel kind of left out, though. Saints won the Super Bowl 31-17, the Olympics started, that's been exciting. Not so exciting is that I'm kind of sick, & haven't gotten much school done this week. I guess that Valentine's Day is tomorrow. My take? Who cares? I sometimes wonder if breaking up w/Maddie was the right thing to do. I think it was, though. Been reflecting on the sermons we heard at camp, that's been good to think about. Oh, WE GOT A NEW OVEN!! A real, normal size oven! :D Yippee! [When I get upset or nervous, I clean. When I get extremely stressed, I start cooking. We hadn't had an oven since we left Tahlequah in late September. This was a very big deal.] Oh, I mentioned Swiftdust earlier, guess I should explain who that is. She's the new guinea pig, from Southern Ag about 2 weeks ago. Mostly blonde, with white stripes and black face. Very quiet, and cute. Oh, & got my phone upgraded to a Samsung Impression, one of those slider phones. Daytona 500 is tomorrow, go #5 and #18 (Mark Martin and Kyle Busch)

     March 15, 2010
     Hey,
     Hmm. OK, baseball started, basketball ended, drama going nicely. Church? Not so much. I was reminded of that Friday night, watched The Village. Pretty good movie, that's all the good about movie nights, studying them to see how they tick. Kinda mixed up about life. Writing, music, acting, filmmaking, something else entirely? What am I supposed to do? Skeet is doing well, Dusty hasn't got in any scrapes, but I feel guilty about playing Webkinz.

     Saturday, April 17, 2010
     Hey,
     Was over at Billy Veytovich's today, there was a surprise party for him. It worked. Even if he does have autism, he's still a pretty neat guy to know. Kyle, Roy, his girlfriend Kyla, JB, Evan, Julie, Quinton, Alton, Jessica Ashley, Brenna and Emily were there, too. Man, they're crazy, but GOOD crazy, ya know what I mean? Had a great time. Brenna's still (I sound like Damon...:P) kind of hot. That....uh, energy is getting more noticeable. The talent show is 2 weeks away, yet I'm not that worried. Amazing, huh? Baseball's nearly done, then....summer. Rats. Swifty squeak wheeted at me as soon as I got home, that was really nice. [Guinea Pig language for "My friend is home!"] The country is heading downhill even faster, but for now, in Oklahoma, life's pretty awesome. Garage sale next Saturday, hope that goes well.

     Saturday, May 1, 2010
     Hey,
     This was a good week. Drama's been going well, hunt out w/the gang, went skating & explored Honor Heights last Friday. dad's kinda worried about money, he's gonna start working for the census Monday. I haven't had time to play Webkinz lately. Oh, we had a garage sale last Sat, we made about $420 or so. Guitar is going in the middle, some days good, other days frustrating. Camp's in less than 3 months away, excited about that. I've kind of been thinking about MiMi recently, I think cause my birthday's coming up.

     Thursday, May 13, 2010
     Hey,
     The [unreadable squiggle] went okay, I suppose. I backed out of playing guitar to "Don't Take the Girl & just sang it a capella. "Who's On First" went nicely, although it seemed like the whole show was an appetizer for JB's main course ending. Which she deserves, it's just a bit annoying, though. I think I made Brenna mad, not cool. Today we went & helped out w/the state Special Olympics in Stillwater, which was awesome. [Met Spike Mama that day; next year she'd be leading us Youth Tour kids all around Washington D.C.] Had lunch at Eskimo Joe's, which was cool. Baseball ended, which is't (but it is). It seems like I might need guitar lessons but Idk. It would probably be helpful, but I feel if I did that, it would be disheartening, somehow. And it seem so darn expensive. But they probably would help. Archery starts tomorrow for the summer, that will hopefully be cool.

     Monday, May 24, 2010
     Hey,
    Had Annette, Roy, Emily, Levi, Evan, Zeke, Quinton, Alton, Brenna, Kyle & Billy, plus Kaitlyn, Breann & their other little sisters, over for a party Saturday. That went pretty well, Roy & Breann had a big(huge) fight, but it was cleared up. Then we went to the Estrada's, & stayed til after 9. [Since mine, Roy and Emily's birthdays all fall within a week of each other, it wound up being a combined party, type of thing. Everyone got to our house late morning or early afternoon, then went over down the road  to the Estradas. It was a good day. There was lots of playing "Speed Racer" video games, flirting, basketball and Ultimate Frisbee games, plus snacks.] Brenna isn't mad at me, as far as I know, she's still making her mind up about whether to go out with me or not. [Nothing ever happened with this.] She wasn't replying to my texts because she was grounded. Apparently Kaitlyn also likes Kyle. [He had a huge crush on her for years.] School's about ended for most people, it wasn't the best year for me, I don't really think I grew as a person enough since last summer. While the house was being finished, yes, but after that not much. [Looking back now, I agree even more now than I did then.] I survived football season, made it through basketball season, & endured baseball season. I'll need to try to cover softball(fastpitch, possibly slowpitch), track, cross country & tennis. It's an odd feeling to read how the seasons went, week by week, & know that I was the chronicler of them. [Very strange, yes.] People seem to like the articles, which is good. Josh & Suzanna are together now, everyone's camp timers are ticking away. I've missed MiMi a lot this past month.

     Saturday, May 29, 2010 6:07 am
     Hey,
     Well, it's my birthday. I don't feel smart enough to be 17, I don't know why. What will I do, both good & bad, over this next year?

     Friday, June 12, 2010 6:38 am
     Hey,
     Not much has happened lately, I read some new Agatha Christie stories, got myself a new camcorder, and was accepted for writing for OKBlitz.com. Roy, Billy, Zeke, Quinton, Kyle, Alton, JB, Emily, Mariah, Evan and Brenna are all at Falls Creek, I hope they're having a good time. We aren't going to have a fireworks stand this year, Dad's census stuff ends tonight. It's been a long tiring week, I think cause there isn't much to do. [This sums up most of my summers....and it reads something like a preview of college life.]

     Friday, June 25, 2010
     Hey,
     It's been an okay week, I've gotten school done, read Agatha Christie, played my guitar, practiced archery, I wrote some drafts for how I'd make videos of "Austin" and "That Ain't My Truck", & I'm gonna make drafts of videos for "Suds in the Bucket" & "Don't Take the Girl", too. Now, I just need some friend help in shooting them....AI told where they'll be holding auditions this year, the closest is Austin, and 2nd closest is Nashville. Maybe next year...& it probably wouldn't be worth it, with Simon gone, anyway. And there's no chance I'd make it, but it would be neat to try for, anyway. JB is definitely going, Annette & Julie might. I'd like to, but I can't see how I'd afford it. Camp is a month & a day away, that's cool. Tim Nehrbass might have cancer, which isn't . Been teaching Courtney & Caleb basketball, it's CRAZY hot outside. High 90's all week, humid, with heat indexes 105 & up. Almost makes you want to swim. We're going to get some kittens today.

     Sunday, June 27, 2010
     Hey,
     We named the girl kitten Leia, & Jonathan had named the other Officer, & after some dispute, that's still his name. Church was pretty good today, gave me some things to ponder. We painted an old lady's house for her Saturday morning, nobody knows Eunice Fisher very well, I don't think, but there was about 15 people who came. [I duct-taped fallen tree branches together for trash pickup, and cleaned some neighbor old guy's garden of weeds with Kaitlin Graham.] After that we went garage saling, found books & bookshelves. [This is the extremely rich neighborhoods of Tulsa; one of those books specialized in pointing out mistakes in movies. It's pretty entertaining.] I think we all breathe a sigh of relief when Monday gets here, Dad's been not exactly easy to live with. Really stressed, and tired, and that stresses me and Mom out, & basically it's nice to go back to school and cleaning. I shouldn't feel that way, I don't think, but I do. A lot of people I know have seen Toy Story 3, I wanna see it sometime, preferably still in theaters. It's just started raining, I'm watching the lightning.I haven't written anything for at least a month, it's getting old fast. Brenna still hasn't gotten her phone back yet. Less than a month til camp, we don't know who will drive us, though. It should be a good time, I'm looking forward to it, but pessimistically, as this is probably the final year they'll have it. [HAHAHAHA.....] I'm surprised to say it, but I don't want Paul or Robert to leave the youth group, I'm not ready to lead it. Although there is that quote the Taillefers like to use: "If God brings you to it, He'll see you through it." It'll work out.

     Saturday, July 3, 2010
     Hey,
     It's  been a long, stressful week. We cleaned a lot, & then Amy got sick & Harry & Louise couldn't visit, Dad's been tough to be around, Courtney, Caleb and Trevor were fighting, & I can't do a thing about it. And there isn't really anybody I can talk to about it with, either. Did I mention politics reared its ugly head again, & I've been attacked by memories all week? Not necessarily bad, either, mostly good ones, but that leave you disappointed, like when they actually happened. MiMi, and cats, and riding horses, soccer, things like that. 6 years ago I went to Westville for the "last" time, just before Johnny died, & about a year before MiMi was gone, too. When I got Rocky, when life wasn't quite as complicated. I've read some Agatha Christie, & I have some Mark Twain to dive into. I can't help planning for college and the future, & I'm scared half to death about it.

     Tuesday, July 13, 2010
     Hey,
     We got a trampoline Saturday, Mr. Boyd's son wanted to get rid of it. Wasn't that hard to set up, kinda fun. Camp is in 1 week and 6 days, & archery's Friday. I'm only writing this down to fill out this page before moving on to a different notebook.